Shari, I'm sorry. I don't know any other words other than "I'm sorry". I know I hurt you and I never want to hurt you ever again. My world is lifeless without you. You remember that analogy I used before we got together about the gray worlds and the colorful people that show us how beautiful everything is? You are my colorful person. I need you and I can't go on without you. I don't know how I'm going to win your favor back but I swear (as God as my witness) that I will never let you down again. All I ever wanted and needed is in your arms and I will go the ends of the Earth to return to their warmth. Even though my eyes are incapable of crying, my heart breaks and my soul shudders with silent tears. You've changed my life and I never want to go back to the way I was before I met you. I feel like such an asshole for hurting you. I feel like hurting myself even though you can't do it to me physically. I feel like lying down in a gutter to stay out of your way. I don't deserve you. Please show me your beautiful smile and twinkling eyes again. Please show me some glimmer of hope in my gray world. I hate myself for making you cry. I hate myself for being a liar and bastard. I hate myself for not being able to cry. Please let me crawl back into your arms. Please understand that I never wanted to hurt you. Shari, I'm so sorry. I'll make it up to you some how. I vow to make that smile return to your face. I vow to bring happiness back into your life. I swear, Shari. I love you.

*yawn* hora, watashi no tomodachi ohayoo gozaimasu. Back in the day (like WAY back about 660 b.c.) China used to call Japan "Wa" which meant dwarf. Apparently the Chinese saw Japan as a subservant "little brother". Yeah, laugh it up China! Haha! Just you wait till we beat the shit out of Russia twice! Who's laughin' now ya commie bastards!? Muahahahaha!....Sorry. Gotta stick up for my boys, you know. So yeah, I figured I could start out every post with a nice little cultural note from Japan. Seeing as how I've never been there and all. Mark my words, I will go to Japan one day! And I will do it with honor! *goes back to stumbling through his limited Japanese vocabulary and mutters to himself "Oh yes! One day! My precious Nihon!"*

Wow...haven't posted in a long time. Okay so here's what's up, +frenchtoast+ is officially dead. D E D dead. Why? Because I'm lazy as hell that's why. I've become even more obsessed with all things Japanese and have developed a quaint little vice for constructed languages (conlangs, artlangs, loglangs, modlangs...the whole lot of 'em). Don't smot at me like I'm bazoomny. I really like slovoes (especially the baddiwad ones). Yeah...nadsat...fun. Sooooo.....um, bye.

when you put it inside of you....it makes you feel better. Nine months and one day ago, Shari and I began this woderful journey of love. I love you baby.

So school was closed for like 30minutes tonight. But now it's reopened and whatnot. My mental clock just got fucked up. Ow! It hurts!

Hoo pa pa! What's new? 'dunno.

Frenchtoast is going off the air for an unknown amount of time.